To get the hang of it, is to let go. To let go is to follow your instinct and not your senses. What your instincts precede may be more than meets the results of your neurological processes. So follow your heart, and not your thoughts, is what they say.

The problem comes when assumed superior power from the external environment, propels you forward into the limelight, the showdown of panic, nervousness, self-consciousness, and frustration. When you halt at the hinging humility, heaving aside the humanity in you, hacking away the hindrance of confidence that you have so strongly and wrongly brought upon yourself all these years, then you would finally see what it could be like, to experience a rare power.

Self-esteem.

Below the bundling bullocks of your bros bulldozing back your best behaviour, there is a chance for you to hone your inner aura, to capture that determination and exploit your true perseverance in achieving what you can, if only you had that confidence to overcome this bluff materiality that is destroying your will. But also notice that throughout your journey, the jostling jacks and jills jolted you with justified support and unconscious positivity, posting pieces of puzzles in positions to put the plains to pester, pleading preferably for your pillared perfection to surface from your ponder. But also use that not as an excuse. Use that as your beacon of light. Your leap of faith. Don't deny the distinction that you were duly dosed with dealt decks containing the basic manuals of life. It's just that it didn't ring you right in the rib to read them regurgitatively at least.

Tell a tale and toss a tongue to treat your self-esteem. Bring a book and break a leg when you're faced with challenges. Follow the fun and face your fears when you are confronted at the chills of your chest. That would be the best way to see that peer pressure and inexistent sensitivity is a heartbreaking hurdle, but can also be a way of showing you a secret passage way to climbing up the confidence ladder and even synergistically developing you, yourself, a Jack of All Trades.