Today, I discovered the indecisiveness of a fickle perspective being so unsettled. It shoots to the end of the world, searching for a sign of truth but suddenly bends its steady course toward a new-found attraction. It fires back a U-turn at the call of conflict or confusion, and travels lightspeed across the galaxy to try and figure it out. A fickle perspective, so unsettled, so untamed. It could turn so dangerous overnight, yet subtly be able to exponentially develop your naive mind and fresh soul.

That is how we become knowledgeable. That is how we mature. By forming perspective, by empathizing with others. By hearing events happen as how you imagined your worst fears and curiosities to. But that's life, and that's growing up. Unable to erase a memory but embrace its valuable lesson to you, the world starts to seem like a better place to live in.

Thank you my friends, my family and my lord, for bestowing such a revelation upon me. None would have idea of how much this will affect me and my daily operation, my fickle-perspectives, my soul. I still feel troubled yet relief is already cast throughout me.

Frankly as I cannot emphasize anymore, I do wish the best of blessing and joy to submerge you in happiness and abundance, but also stash away the sorrow and conflicts in a little dusty box of faded memories.

From the bottom of my heart and the end of my capabilities, you have my full support. =)

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When will the quadrant reunite?


Will it be in the near future?


Will it be.

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Over the years, I come across wonderful, attractive, vertically-suitable and generous angels, of which almost all come in to and go off from my life with flaws I find difficult to tolerate.

I know so confidently that I compose a highly judgmental attitude towards people, but to know that I judge so hardly and conservatively, yet forgive all flaws I see in this one angel?

What else could unconditional generosity and forgiveness mean, if it were not meant for a single soul to be cherished and upheld?

Are smoking, clubbing, and drinking flaws that I would forgive, in the first place?

Would I compromise all else that I believe in, just to seek the one?

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Savour the moment of joy and peace. Before your life takes off.



























Happy Birthday, mate.

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Always make it a point to have fun through the tough times because you're never gonna get that same time back. And you wouldn't want to spend it with a long face and a frown.

Happy birthday, both of you. =]

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Allow your senses to drop, allow them to relax; Allow your spirit to roam, allow it to soar. Feel the silence in you, and shut out the noise outside. When you're ready, take a deep breath.

For many ages, we feel the growing emptiness as friends and family adjourn to a faraway land, we feel the guilt of not spending enough time with them, we equip our 20/20 vision and look back at the past, seeing everything so clear now, "we should've done this", "we should've done that", and fail to realize the value of something greater than just the bond that integrates us all. We panic toward the future yet we sigh with mundane expectations of it. We call out to nature, hoping that it will care for us in times of need, when we are without these important souls, when we are alone, when we get back up and continue our journey to seek a greater purpose in life.

All I'm saying is, when the going gets emotionally tough, all you need to do is look at life as it happens now, and not what you plan for it to happen. Just allow your senses to rest, allow your spirit to fly, and take that breather you cast your oath upon, the oath that contains your word of determination, of vigilance, of aspiration and of peace.

And remember, celebrate the joy you had all the while, with your close ones, with your enemies, celebrate to free your chains, locking you down to desolation, self-pity, pessimism and solitary isolation, celebrate in recognition of existence, of respect, for glimmer and glory, for trust and empathy.


Celebrate.



















































Celebrate.

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I can never really conclude whether or not I feel close to them, still, or even since the beginning. I can't say we fully accept and understand that the only underlying principle which bonds us together is that of our backgrounds, where, together we shared them for 5 years or so, taking advantage of the fact that we are only in common from the way we talk about ourselves and others, the things we used to do back in the school-uniform days, the outings and trips we organize, and how we trust each other to be ethical and moral souls. But other than that, we are all tens of worlds apart, only acknowledging our commonality to be our only bond which keeps us coming back to update each other about our mundane lives and activities, blinded from reality, elaborated by the diversity in lifestyles and visions each of us maintain for ourselves.

The ultimate question I propose to myself is, what is friendship? does friendship revolve around a social contest? to see who has more friends for the sake of a popularity chase of some sort. Or is it a catchnet just for your comfort in times of insecurity and panic? Or maybe it's just a contract between two souls connected to one another through a thread unbreakable by physical impairment, but able to be fractured by the tip of pen or the flux in a voice tone, altering the human ego and esteem.

What bothers me more is the way we look at each other, demand an expected level of understanding, trust and comfortable exchange of silence and profanities in our rants and chants, without a drop of skepticism or introversion. The chemistry behind relationships between two or more human beings, labelled as the ignition of a friendship bond, further excruciates my wandering thoughts.

All may boil down to my personal insecurity, questioning the insignificant, the taken-for-granted, the unnecessary.

But there is, though, some truth to this insight, that
































fark. that was damn lame. Bah. I'm warming up my psd-blogging skills la.

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Since my exams, it's been really hectic. But I can't say I've been busy for 25 hours a day. At least I tried really hard to fit in as much activity into my wasted-every-semester 3-week holiday.



Had so many friends come back this time around, It was really hard keeping track of everyone and organizing events. Everything was clashing and nyarghh. You know that feeling where you just have to sigh and reply your friend to say that you're having a family dinner tonight and you can only drop by later. Nimmphhhurghhiaaahhh.



But at least I got to see half of the two worlds. =]



Did loads of work with cynthia the past week, it's all hush hush till she launches her new fashion blog, so keep updated on it at her personal blog. Even I am really excited!



*Cyn: I haven't checked, but I totally bet you seriously deleted the 'demon' picture. >.<



After half a year, my dreams of pursuing strobing (professional lighting for photography) have finally realized partially. I really have to thank my dad for my birthday money that funded the hundreds of ringgit flown out of my wallet. Gosh, I better speed up my designs to earn back some cash.

Eh eh oh ya! strobing people! let's go on an outing! will plan one with Shaz soon. keep you posted.



Having cousins back from London added to the already-packed schedule. CHECK THIS OUT LAR. my fricking life organized into a whiteboard.



The days that were crossed (excluding that first 4 days which were exam dates) represents FRICKING USELESS DAYS WHICH I SPENT SLEEPING AND EATING AND LAZING AROUND which gave me quite a surprise coz there were only 2. Compared to my previous holidays, i dunno, there were probably like. 21.



Anyways, I've probably confirmed that my passion for blogging has died, but rest assured my passion for photography has not. If only I could fuse the two together and spark an idea that would keep me going at it consistently.



But for now, I'm really busy busy busy with blog designs, currently on Shaz's, and just completed one for White Prints. She's an old friend from high school. Go visit okay. Currently she has 3 items in stock, but more will definitely come in the near future.



Oh yeah. Yun. hahaha. My floorball soulmate. WHOOPA we finally played floorball, like 7 of us... and that's been THE HIGHEST ATTENDANCE for a floorball gathering in like years, man. years.

Oh, right. yea floorball is something like ice hockey on land, usually played indoors on parquet, but wherever there's cement would be a good spot to start this high-paced fast ball game. No rollerblades but shoes, allowing for maximum agility and ball control creates a tiring but exhilirating experience in slapping the white hollow plastic balls into a cardboard box from the half court line.

Floorball Commercial wtf



So yea, I do blogskins, but I am yet to propose a standardized schedule for the service charges. If you'd like to find out more, please e-mail me at lohjonming[@]hotmail.com.

Merry Christmas to all of you, and a Happy New Year to wish you all the best for your upcoming 2009.

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I'm in the mood for some strobing omggggg. But my stupid exams are making me so restlessly rested.

on a chair.

in the blistering refrigerator they call library.

I shall continue posting up pictures from my comp aimlessly.



Maddy's tiny birthday gathering.

In comparison to her happening, lively, whacked out, super duper onz SAC party rave birthday gathering celebration event.

To which we non-SACs weren't invited. Heh.



Wuih.

tengok itu dua Ang Moh di belakang.



Wuih.



Dasyat.



Wuih. check out the... umm...

protrusion on her neck.



Dasyat.





























Okay back to studying. Please remember to suggest me ideas of how to make some buckeroos during the holiday.

ps: I have had no working experience at all in my entire life.

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